The long absence
Hi it’s me…do you remember, that mummy blogger that has a lot to say and dumps all her thoughts on a website for you all to read and be mildly amused? It feels like it’s been so long since I did this, I’m a little guilty like an owner that abandoned their pet dog at the park for a long deserved break while she figures things out. But rest assured I am baackkkkkkk! Well I’m back until my next break (lol). This is an I’m sorry but I’m not sorry moment and I’ll tell you exactly why. Before I delve into this blog, can I say I have genuinely missed writing! Having the time to actually sit down, clear my thoughts and let it all out, is an outlet for me. We live in a world where we are constantly surrounded by noise, busyness and endless things to do and catch up on. It’s a welcomed pleasure when I can get an hour to just be…that is my ideal time to write.
If you recall where I left off, (check out my return to work post) I had returned to work after maternity leave and was relishing in how underwhelming it was blah blah. Fast forward a couple of weeks and let me tell you, life has been giving me a kick up the backside. Here I will insert the keyword “balance”. Me and balance have been on different pages for about a month now and we still aren’t exactly the best of pals but our relationship is on more stable grounds, so much so that I am now reattempting to blog consistently once again. You know those seasons where every area of your life seems to require a lot of attention and the number of balls being juggled is just not easing up, I am currently in one of these but working my way out of the overwhelm associated with it.
Needless to say, work has been busy, the adjustment has been a lot harder than I expected. I had forgotten how to do portions of my job. Getting up at the crack of dawn takes its toll. Some days I just don’t feel like waking up my now 1 year old (yayyy he’s finally one, blog on my feelings on this is pending) and dragging his sleepy head on a long car journey to childcare before heading to my daily hustle. Coming to a house of laundry and then some has its way of leaving a sour taste in your mouth. All this I somehow expected but perhaps I hadn’t fully prepared myself, my schedule, my time management and mind to “balance” it all.
A wise woman (my spiritual mother) told me recently “you can’t live your life the same way you did when you weren’t a mother and a wife”. This was a genuine lightbulb moment for me; I had just spent an hour moaning about how I can’t do it all and can’t seem to figure out why. Sometimes the solution comes oh so simply that you can easily miss it. My “ka’ching” moment was realising that I hadn’t gone through the mental adjustment that would in turn affect how I managed my life. Life as I know it had fully changed and although I knew and accepted this, I hadn’t put practical steps in place to accommodate this new normal. Here’s me trying to watch Love Island at 9pm and Real Housewives of Atlanta on Mondays at 7pm. Reality check please; I have better things to do with my time. Don’t get me wrong, downtime is definitely essential but in busy seasons, some things have to take a back seat and pale in comparison to important tasks that require seeing to.
This is me being as honest and real as I can be, so hopefully those that can relate and aren’t superwomen can know that they aren’t alone. We are all on a road to figuring things out, it’s not a destination but a journey. Some days I have it all together, and others I don’t have a clue which foot is right and which is left. But I’m hopeful that with consistency and refinement, I’m on my way to having it a bit more together than I do now. This is going to be a short one, for me to reintroduce myself and pour out my many excuses for not blogging but I promise myself to do better to please stick with me.
Here are a few pearls of wisdom I have acquired from my month off blogging to encourage myself in times of overwhelm:
1. “Success is the progressive realisation of an ideal or goal” – Earl Nightingale
If you are working towards a goal, no matter where on that journey you are, you are a success! So keep going even if it doesn’t feel like you are “there”. You’re a success just by the mere fact that you are working towards something and are moving
2. It is never too late to start
A year from now, you will be happy you took the first step because you will be further along than you are now.
3. Nothing worth having comes easy, otherwise everyone would be doing it
Accepting that it takes hard work, dedication and determination to achieve anything in life
4. The difference between me and those that have achieved their dreams is that they were brave and took the step to make things happen
5. My gifts and talents will make room for me
Embrace your attributes and make it work for you.
That’s all from me. See you next week for your weekly dose of awesomeness.